Living In My Dreams

Fuckers

2011-03-28T11:56:00.001+08:00

Fuck assholes who have no manners and a cock face.

Evil people

2011-02-21T23:47:00.001+08:00

I'm so pissed of!
The world is full of evil people. No one that you can really trust!

My 21st

2011-02-05T17:20:00.001+08:00

I was actually reading up on interviews, looking through friends fb of them talk/ showing what they have done during their 21st birthday celebration.

Looking at how they partied, drank, and go crazy. I kinda regret. I should have done crazier things. Afterall, you only lived life once...young. At such a big day in your life, it is worth doing crazy things. At least you could share with others and look back and laugh at it.

Sigh.......

Im done!

2011-01-26T21:59:00.001+08:00

FINALLY! I'm done with all the modules for my night class. Though I did super badly for the last one. But... oh well..

;D
:D

Will miss my classmates though..

2011-01-23T23:50:00.000+08:00

I mass scratched my Mac.

T.T

Best friends?

2011-01-07T23:28:00.001+08:00

My cousin says, " when a person goes into a relationship, they loses 2 good friends"

But why is it always me?!

Happily ever after

2010-12-11T22:04:00.001+08:00

To live happily ever after. Is a make believe.

The way to experience it?
Join acting.

The morning

2010-11-29T07:40:00.001+08:00

I was preparing myself for work today.
My mind was going from- I'm damn tired, how nice it feels to get to continue sleeping, screw work, and then it went to my future.

It was then that it struck it. If I'm going Australia for studies, it will be very soon. I have to get everything ready and will be leaving on my own for quite some time. Alone.
I started to get abit nervous and worried. Am I able to do it?

It was actually the first time I felt this way.

Support

2010-11-27T02:42:00.001+08:00

"Everyone is supporting you...in a way"
I do wish it was some other kind of support.

Or rather, why is my life this way.
Isn't there an easier way out?

I'm tired of constantly getting my bubbles burst.
HELP ME!!

...

2010-11-21T10:35:00.001+08:00

I'm not in a good mood. No where to vent it all out. Feels like I'm suffocating. Not sure what to do. Why did I let myself go through this again?

Staff Retreat

2010-10-22T07:41:00.001+08:00

I'm off to my annual torture- STAFF RETREAT!!
..

Study!

2010-09-08T21:03:00.001+08:00

I forgot how painful it is to study!
Especially when I got no one to ask help from or to chiong together. T.T

Last min studying

2010-09-01T22:14:00.001+08:00

Hahahaha.. I finally found how I can blog with my phone!

Looks like I will be able to update more often. Much much more often.

Studying under a void deck a few blocks away from my home.
Cold wind blowing.. No one to talk to... With a weird man behind my back. -.-
So bored and scary.

SAD

2010-08-30T18:40:00.000+08:00

How much more unhealthier can I get?

2010-06-10T16:50:00.000+08:00

I.. NEEED.. TOoo.. SHOP!

2010-05-29T01:57:00.003+08:00

No one is able to accompany me to the fair.
Will need my transcripts but I left it in the office. And I went to office today.
My sister rather chat with her bf then listen to me rant.
I'm most likely going alone- if it is even possible for me to go.

FML

2010-05-02T15:56:00.001+08:00

I'm not sure.
Is this what I want?

2010-03-16T23:01:00.003+08:00

So much hatred....
No where to vent...

Feel like puking already.

-.-...

I'm having so many evil thoughts that I have to keep reminding myself,
''Xue Fen, be nice, be nice.'' and start taking deep breaths.

I might soon be Satan's best friend.

2010-03-15T22:25:00.001+08:00

Sigh...

Now my sis have left for Switzerland and Paris for 10 days.

It's left with me and my mum now.

As if I don feel lonely enough.

:(

2010-03-08T23:36:00.003+08:00

!!!

I wanna watch his concert!!

Hot eh?

2010-03-04T20:53:00.006+08:00

Sigh.
Time just passes too quickly.
Miss those days.

Especially when I have to go back to the same place but without these ppl.... TOMORROW! *rolls eyes* And the day after tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow de tomorrow and the day after... tomorrow... and....

Alright! I'm so bored that I was looking through facebook pictures. -.-

Credits to those who took the pics. (:

2010-03-04T01:09:00.002+08:00

I am so so so bored.

Took 2 1/2 days off, for nothing.
Not exactly nothing...

My bro flew to china today. So my entire family woke up and left the house at 7:30am.
Had breakfast(Mac breakfast!) together, and at about 9 plus, he went in.

He will be there for 1 month plus. Thus, I think I'm gonna be bored. No one to bully for such a long period of time.

So got home at abt 12, slept till 5. Woke up and surfed the net.
To constantly think which website to surf is really tiring. -.-

Manage to convince my mum to have KFC for dinner, wanted to irritate my bro by posting the KFC pic in facebook but apparently no facebook in China.

I'm so bored that I'm typing what I did for today.

....

Bye

2010-02-28T21:23:00.002+08:00

Lionel told me that he agrees with his fucking friend that I am screwed up.

What's the point of continuing this friendship?

2010-02-21T22:37:00.002+08:00

I don't think I've told anyone about this...

I'm gonna be registering myself to a 1 year specialised diploma in Molecular Biotechnology. Which is starting around April i think.

And,

I'm gonna sign up for a CUGE course soon, sponsored by NP. Probably around June period, after all the paper works have been done etc etc. Which is alot of work to be done which I dread most!

And of course, I will still be working full time.

I was all motivated on Friday, and now I'm starting to chicken out.
WILL I BE ABLE TO MAKE IT?? Failing is definitely a no way.

2 days course is able to make me feel totally sian, I wonder how am I gonna survive for a year this way.

-.-

Note: I'm signing all this up alone! T.T

Do me a favour, and tell me it's actually nothing.

2010-02-21T14:42:00.002+08:00

BlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlah Blah Blah....

Feeling damn sian!
Sick and have to go for a 2 days course tomorrow... ALONE!

-.-

Why is the weekend over..so soon?

2010-02-11T23:15:00.003+08:00

Lisi said she got 200 bucks angbao from her boss brother.

That is probably more then the amount I will get from all the angbaos I will get.

DAMN PISS OFF~

2010-02-04T21:33:00.002+08:00

=D
=D
=D

I finally got it.

*Lousy quality photo is due to photo taken by my sis iphone.

2010-01-15T20:35:00.004+08:00

I was looking through my pictures, that I saw this.

Haato should really get us to endorse their products.
Don't you agree ebellia?

2010-01-07T20:23:00.005+08:00

I'M IN LOVE....

WITH HIM!

After watching We Got Married, I'm sooo in love with him!

Not exactly cause of his look, but his really cute personality.

Damn cute lor.
I shall have my wedding pictures this way.

Looks like he will have to do it again. (:

2009-12-14T00:45:00.002+08:00

As time passes...

I'm getting abit more worried....

WILL I BE CELEBRATING CHRISTMAS AT HOME ALONE?!

2009-11-27T19:58:00.003+08:00

Damn.
Hate it when shows ends.

It gives you this.. Empty feeling.

Like...

''Eh? I wont get to see the handsome guy anymore??''

-.-
Why did I let myself stay at home on a Public Holiday?

2009-11-22T13:12:00.004+08:00

Honestly,

I am really fortunate.

2 years.

Hopefully by then, it wont matter anymore.

On a side note:

I'm going THAILAND in December!!

It have to work out!

2009-11-08T11:44:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, my bro complement me saying I'm actually quite good looking.
:D
:D
I'm happy cause siblings don normally give such comments to each other. At least for my family.
haha

So anyway, it all started because my bro was saying he wants to get a girlfriend and that he says that he is lonely. -.-

And nope, I do not support him getting one.
Not because his not of age yet(since I started earlier) but because I don like seeing my bro treating another girl nicely. Then all his time will go to this girl, and not spending time with us, doing things like watching shows... mainly watching show.
I'm not ready to let my bro have a girlfriend yet.
I doubt his able to get one yet though.

I'm a possessive sister.

2009-10-28T23:36:00.003+08:00

Due to constantly keeping mum.
I caused a misunderstanding between me and my colleague.
Whenever I think about it, I'll have this damn crappy feeling.

SIGH.

Lesson learnt- Explain myself properly in the future.

-.-

2009-10-24T12:37:00.005+08:00

She says,

Stop thinking of the good, think of the bad.

My net is really too laggy. So only 2 pictures.
Had fun that day. (:

2009-10-18T23:41:00.002+08:00

Damn!

Days without MJ and Mark are really tiring AND LONELY.
I'm like always busy, but work seems never ending. And I don think I'm doing a good job.
Sigh.

There is a new temp TSO for this semester. I was hoping it to be a dashing, young, helpful, sweet guy, but... he is young, I'm not sure abt helpful or sweet, as for dashing... I shall say my expectation is too high.

School is starting tomorrow.
How I wish I'm still a student. Having lesson with the class and the GIRLS!
Wish.... still wishing....

OK. Back to my Performance Appraisal Form. crap!

2009-10-12T23:00:00.000+08:00

I would really like to update about whatever that is happening in my life and pictures.
But my family gene is acting up again.

I'll try to do it soon!

2009-10-08T00:29:00.003+08:00

85% Sian
10% Lazy
5% Hope
I'm off to my STAFF RETREAT.
-.-

Hope it wont suck so bad. ARGH

2009-09-25T17:32:00.000+08:00

----..----

Got no internet at home!

:(

2009-09-07T22:33:00.002+08:00

Was talking to Mr Nara today.

Then he said something like;

Good ar.. No problem.. No complain..from lecturers i think.
Something like that. I'm not exactly sure what his saying. Or if he mean it.
There have always been a miscommunication between us.

But then he did this hand sign.

Somehow... It made me Happy. :D

Maybe I'm not that horrible.

That made me happy too.

2009-08-31T20:46:00.003+08:00

I've been a bad bad girl, father...

... for constantly indulging myself with extravagant food and inessential materials.

Thought this is funny.

2009-08-23T01:44:00.001+08:00

Sigh..

TiredTiredTiredTiredTiredTiredTiredTired
TiredTiredTiredTiredTiredTiredTiredTired

It's killing me.

2009-08-16T18:33:00.001+08:00

Well,

I went to sign up for tennis lesson with my sis, and last friday was the first lesson.

My first time taking up a sport.

It was like having PE lessons.

The coach teaching you how to play, doing warm ups, correcting your moves.

Actually, it was quite a fun sport... so far. Since I just had my first lesson.

Hopefully soon, I would be able to play a match. (:

Tomorrow's the start of the exam week, so no more practicals to prepare.

Work will be less hectic.

Date me out!

2009-08-13T13:33:00.002+08:00

YOUR A FUCKING ASSHOLE.

2009-08-07T10:53:00.002+08:00

I'm now in school... BLOGGING.

The nothing-to-do-ness at work is kinda making me worried.

Why is it that everyone around me is busy except for me.

Am i missing something?

2009-07-28T21:31:00.008+08:00

Every since I've seen the Vespa in school,
I wanna own one too!

Seriously... It's damn cool lo.

I'm thinking of creamy white... Red is not so bad too.

Let's see... Further studies? or a VESPA?

....
...
..
.

The latter sounds better.

Maybe I'll just get a rich boyfriend and then i can get both.
Not such a bad idea eh?

2009-07-26T02:37:00.002+08:00

Haiz...
I cant seem to find time for blogging!

This whole week was like work work and more work. But i do occasionally find time for shopping too. Just like how i burnt near 300 over buck on clothes?
What? What save money for overseas studies??

-.-

So anyway, Guess what?

I actually took part in a school competition, called Project Nutz.
It's like a rely consisting of 7 ppl. First person to jog 1.5 km? And the rest 1.2km...

Me? running? Haha...
No choice. I'm a new staff, so i guess i need to be enthu.
There's 2 teams from my sch taking part in the competition, I belong to the 3rd team initially, however it kinda collapse. So i was transferred to the 2nd team at the very last min.
My school got the 4th place. But it was the 1st team. So i didnt get any medals. -,-
But the lecturers are happy.

Hopefully i can get pictures of that day.

Sign it's 2:40am... I hardly get to sleep at such timing anymore.
WHERE IS THE OLD XUE FEN!

Bored... Night

(:

2009-07-06T21:58:00.003+08:00

I left school last week with aching legs.
Ran here and there, water plants, clean up the mess etc etc. Practically no time to sit and rest at all.
However when i got my pay, i felt a little guilty cause i don think I've worked good enough for that amount.
I'm paid for my knowledge but i don think I've given any.
Sigh.

Recently, when ever I'm alone, my mind starts thinking of things which i kept at the back of my head.
Irritating and painful. -.-
When will it end?
Another Sigh.

2009-06-25T22:35:00.011+08:00

For those of you who doesn't know, I'm now working in school, it has been 2 weeks.
And i have to go back to sch tomorrow, which isn't something to look forward to. -.-
I now have to check my e-mail, make sure I've read my practicals thoroughly to know what i have to do. Many other things which i don't do when i was studying.

And i never knew who is our school director until recently, and that she make a speech on our graduation.

It is rather stressful, to have so many smart ppl working at a place and your not one of them.
But so far, everyone have been really nice to me.

I am very lucky to have Estya helping/teaching me with her own time and keep having to answer my stupid questions(really really grateful),

and there's Ming Jie, Mark and Gloria in the same office, so it wasn't difficult to adapt and there's company for lunch. When their gone, I'll still have Nara(Esther's favourite)to have lunch with -as in eat pack food in the office.

Sooo.. Yap.
But then again, our frequency is quite off. They surf on plant webs and blabber plants scientific names when they sees plants.
Once, they were discussing about this story book which mark thinks was quite good, and got me interested(maybe another Harry Potter?). Only to find out that it was some plant/farmer story. -.-

It is when I meet up with ebellia and ask her what is a plant shoot and she replied,
''Shoot.. is a shoot lo.'' that i know I'm not alone. hahaha...

But they are really helpful(answering my dumb qns, solve my problems, clean the lab etc).
Thank You (:
there's more help needed in the future.

Hopefully everything will go well starting from tomorrow. -.-
And that I don't screw up. Please!

Worked and had a sumptuous dessert...meal with Ebellia.
Found that she have matured and became very independent.
Which made me think, what have I been doing.
I'm like still stuck at the times when I'm in sec school, and have not grown ever since.

It wasn't as bad as before.

But it aren't easy.

2009-04-23T13:47:00.004+08:00

-.-... I'm really too lazy to blog.

Oh.. I now knows MJ and Vanessa reads my blog. :)

As for the comment box... Hmm... I'm trying to figure out how do i do it. haha

Hmm... For those of you who doesn't know, i have been keeping hamster for about a year already. With my laziness, would i trouble myself to keep one? I did thought of it though, It was my cousin's hamster. But he claims that he doesn't have time to look after since his going to army. So i took over the responsibility.

1 hamster died last year. Initially we thought it died cause of my negligence -.-... Den Stupid guy said maybe it was diabetes, and i immediately take that as the cause of my hamster death.

So recently, the other hamster was showing the same symptoms.

Increase in thirst; excessive drinking (check)

Excessive peeing (check)

Sudden weight loss/ weight gain (check)

Tiredness/ excessive exercise
(Double check- it can even do pull ups from the top of the cage)

Irritability/ biting when the hamster doesn't bite before
(biting the cage non stop, at night)

Increase in hunger (Not sure)

So after that, we start moaning for it, since it's gonna die soon.
My mum decided to go to the pet store, with my sis to buy some food for it cause we ran out of it. And she bought back these:

And spent a total $41.45 on a dying hamster.
My sis kept complaining and said, the moment the sales person said we should let the hamster enjoy the last few days of its life, my mum agreed to get it. -.-
What was the most absurd was spending 20 bucks on a small spray to disinfect the cage (the blue one). -.-
Maybe it was nothing to some of you, but not for people like us who doesn't even have a house to stay.
But oh well, think the hamster is doing better these few days. AND, the sales person said that maybe it's not diabetes. Might be due to old age. So it's not my fault for feeding it grapes!

Saw some really gross pictures of hamster illness.. Such as hamster pus, protruding eye balls, tumours etc...
but too lazy to save and upload it here.

Till next time den

My Brother

2009-04-15T14:33:00.007+08:00

Told you I'll update soon. Had a new skin too. (:
And update abt my life, slacking and feeling really broke.
It sucks when u don know what to do. Currently looking for a landscape designer job, which is almost impossible. -.-..
Seriously, who would hire someone who doesn't even knows how to draw perspective drawing?! With zero experience. Sigh..

OK.. Lets' talk about more interesting things.
Right now I'm sleeping in the living room! And every morning my mum wakes me up to sleep in the room. -.- Cause she wants to sweep & mop the floor.

It is really irritating to have to wake up when ur not done sleeping.
But at least I'm not alone in the living room. My bro's sleeps just beside. So every night, before sleeping, i would say something to irritate him.

Once... as usual we arguing, and he says we're not related(as usual -,-), den i told him.

Me: You know mummy told me- many years ago ard January.
It was raining heavily that night. And she heard someone crying.
(So i make a crying sound & he follows, making the crying sound too. I was thinking, is he thinking that I'm trying to tell a ghost story?)
Den! She found you in the bin.
She ask me to keep it a secret and not to tell you. But i think you should know.

He got very pissed after that, and said, "You know hate is a very strong word."
(-.-.. Doesn't makes sense)

Haha... I couldn't stop laugh after that. Funny wat.
I don know why it's really fun to disturb him. It's like the lamest(I'm not sure if there's such a word) things can irritate him.

Went out with him a few days back(something that happens very very seldom) for some health check up.

A long bus ride.
See the relation? Told you his from the bin.

So, anyway.. My bro starting school soon- 1st year in poly.
I'm so JEALOUS. I wanna go sch too. -.-

The album cover suits my Ipod, so i took a picture.
Have A Nice Day

2009-04-14T15:17:00.003+08:00

I did not forget about this blog.
Just that I'm too lazy to do anything with it, plus i really got nothing much happening to blog about.
I'm planning to get a new blog skin, though i think my current one is nice.
Ok.. Gonna look for one, Will update soon!

I doubt anyone still visits this blog,
but let's pretend there is. -.-
haha

2009-02-24T13:03:00.003+08:00

Attachment was over 2 weeks ago. But i was still working there last week.
Got myself into a rather, hmmm... i don know what situation due to my indecisiveness. I'm not sure if i should continue work there and ponder abt this for weeks with still no answers. Shall not elaborate further, it will just give more headaches.

So... I look at this week as the final happiness in my life. To do everything I've thought of during my 6 months + 1 week of torture. But sadly... i don think that will happen. With work and everyone being so busy. It will be just another week.
BORED....

2009-02-15T04:15:00.003+08:00

Things went much worse den the worst I've imagine.

IT* Don't Matter

2009-02-09T14:17:00.003+08:00

The future is uncertain.

And I'm afraid of it.

I don't wanna move on.

Hurts to think about it,

but i cant get it out of my head.

2008-12-28T01:55:00.002+08:00

Somehow... I always have a lot of things i wanna blog about, everything will be planned out in my mind about what to write, word for word(mostly when I'm bathing, cause that's when u think the most?).

But somehow... I end up not typing it out. Maybe cause this is an open blog, thus i cant really write exactly how i am feeling now or vent everything out.
AND OF COURSE,
that gene that's hidden in my bones, flows through my blood-LAZINESS.

Maybe just a word to summarise what i initially wanted to type out...

DEPRESSED

Oh... I received quite a number of Christmas presents this year. Not a lot, but just from really random people. And for those whom i didn't receive any from, Shame on you!

-.-... I'm just joking.

Don't worry...

Since I'm still able to talk cock, I'm fine!

I'm addicted to TWILIGHT.

2008-11-26T23:18:00.002+08:00

Submission of the second report is on Friday. I am suppose to be doing/ rushing the report. But as you can see, I'm wasting time BLOGGING.
And i can say, I'm no where near finishing the report.

A peek of what I've done so far.

1. Description of Work Environment

Fukai Environmental was situated in an industrial estate, in JTC building. There are many other neighborhood factories around. In Fuaki, I got to interact and work with people of different countries, such as Malaysia, China, India, Bangladesh etc.

............
Is it cause i haven been using my brain for abt 4 months?
So dead. -.-

2008-11-24T21:34:00.002+08:00

My dear dear friends...

-.-... Any idea why my plants are like that??

For the cupea and snake plants, they do get quite strong sunlight in the noon. It's all under shelter. Watered daily in the morning (~9 plus).

As for Anthrium? haha... It's indoor, constantly in the shade.

I seriously don know why they are always in bad condition and no flowers are able to survive there. Zzz...

I'll treat you ice cream?

2008-10-25T13:46:00.003+08:00

Seems like it's not just me, every one's too busy with their life to update their blogs. Nothing to do, so end up blogging.
Hmm... 10 plus mins left before i have to go prepare myself for work. Spent the morning(maybe afternoon) surfing the webs, reading blogs. Thought of watching some online movies but nothing interesting. Any recommendations?

Monday is a public holiday, Deepavali. But i have to work night shift, including today and tomorrow. Then from Tue all the way to Sunday i have to go Expo to help out at my company's exhibition, from 12pm-10pm. =.= In other words, I'm stuck with work for the entire week, not going out AT ALL.
Talk about NO LIFE. Sigh...

Well... I shouldn't be complaining, from wat i know alot of you are busy preparing for Christmas. Thousand plus Christmas tree? -.-... We're suffering from Global Warming already. And who puts real trees in their house anyway? OK... maybe rich families. The last time i had a fake Christmas tree in my house was... 5-6 years ago?
Anyway, majority have to spend the Christmas period helping out at their attachment place. Which is really sad.

Don worry... There's just another 3 more months of torture and a few reports to go. (:

2008-10-08T22:33:00.002+08:00

Is it ME that's why things are like that?

Sigh....

Hope things get better.

or u prefer it to end?

2008-10-01T00:49:00.002+08:00

WEEEEEEE....

No Work Tomorrow!!!
Love public holidays.

Was told that we have to submit our first IAP report on Friday before 12pm. Was quite shock to hear that, cause i didn't expect it to be so soon. Errr.... Cause i didn't check. But seriously, i think the school shouldn't make us do reports and presentations after making us suffer so much. -.-...
6 months of IAP is a TORTURE. Probably a self-reflection at the end of the IAP will do.

Zzz... Now i have to rush out a report by Friday.

To update about my life...

Right now, I'm still working. Will get leave on public holidays, haven got my pay, i don know when either. Zzz.... Cheap labour, paid 420 per month. Work almost OT everyday. Hahaha.... Especially when I'm ,meeting my friends. -.-
Still not happy with work, esp. the waking up early part, as well as the i cant wear slippers and paying roughly 100+ every month on TRANSPORTATION! So bloody expensive lo. It's like I'm only earning 300 a month.
What else.... Oh well... I'm just bored there. How i wish someone, maybe one day NParks will to close down and Esther was transfer to my place. Or my company were to close, and I'm transferred to Nparks, or any of the nurseries the rest are at. How i wish.....

K... A few more months to go. Will try to blog often.

2008-09-05T23:34:00.004+08:00

Haha... I'm finally blogging.
Just got back after having dinner with Esther, Ebellia and Melissa. Yan Shan got some course and wasn't able to meet up with us. Initially i thought of not meeting them cause i was at Expo helping out for my company roadshow, but i'm glad i did.
Oh... I didn't take pictures of the place!!!! T.T Wanted to put it in my presentation. Zzzz

So anyway, i seriously had a really great time with them. We're laughing like mad the entire time. sigh... i miss the times with them. I want to go school............
Haiz...

Work was OK now. After listening to the problems faced by the rest during their attachment, i think mine was quite OK. Though it's really lonely and it will be great if i have a Friend with me. haha
Hope the coming months will be better.

Before i forget,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

MISS WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Sorry for greeting u this late, but i believe u had a great time. (:

And i finally received my present from Lisi.

haha... very nicely wrapped. This is probably the only present i received this year.

Oh... i did received another present.

Strawberry rolls from my bro. -.- The cake is from my sis. haha

Oh well.... It's weekend again.

2008-08-25T23:37:00.002+08:00

Endure for the next... 5months and probably 29 days?
-.-..

I'm missing school already!!

I want to join NParks. T.T

2008-08-24T21:29:00.002+08:00

Well... Today is the last day of my school holiday.
The next one will probably be when i start studying in U. SIAN!!

So the last few weeks of school was really busy, too busy.
It ended with our FYP presentation, and it was horrible. Made me wonder why put in so much effort.

Right after that will be attachment, which is tomorrow. -.-
I think it's worse than squeezing the bus to school. Why?
Cause i cannot be late, thus i cant miss buses when it's too full.
And my aunt say there's full of China at that area. -.-
And it is really like an industrial park. -.-
And i got the lowest pay. -.-
And i have to work full shift weekend. -.-

Sigh sigh sigh...

Hopefully the people there are nice.
Otherwise hear, or more like read my rant.

haha... Wish me luck!

T.T

2008-07-31T01:02:00.007+08:00

YouTube - Discovery Channel: I Love the World

I LOVE THE WORLD!

2008-07-19T00:54:00.003+08:00

Today's work was horrible.
The combination of both was the ultimate.
I miss Wheelock.

Now i know how it feels to be the third.

2008-07-15T00:12:00.002+08:00

Seems like there's just too much things in hands that we no longer have time for each other.

I am no longer your top priority.

Am i too inconsiderate?

2008-07-07T20:35:00.003+08:00

Time to update about my life....

Hmmm... Too hectic for me to cope. But I'll spare u guys the details.

So anyway, been craving for my Tom Yam Maggi since yesterday, so decided to have that for my dinner. Good thing there 1 last packet left for me.
Threw in 3 crab sticks, seasoning, Maggi and lastly an egg to make it perfect.

Tada!!

Nope... I don add black sauce to my noodles.

it's just my rotten egg.

Can u imagine the stench?

I almost puke out my digestive juices, since I've not eaten.

Went to cook another bowl of Chicken Maggi. And it's still stained with the smell.

Zzz

Bathing time....

I'm craving for expensive bubble tea!!!!

2008-06-29T16:04:00.003+08:00

It's the end of the week again, which means more datelines that is about to due.
Sigh... Life is boring with all the work. I guess when you get older, the more No Life you get.

Well, i finally get to wake up 2pm! Not 6am, or 7am or 8am! I miss my holiday. No, not the 2 weeks break holiday. -.-
But even so, i don feel energised AT ALL. I need another day rest.

I seriously need a change in my attitude,
and start being nicer.
(Don get freak out when i smile brightly to you. I'm a nice person!)

2008-06-09T21:51:00.003+08:00

It's holiday, At last!!
But i still have to go school almost everyday. Sigh...
So busy plus tired.... How i wish i can just sleep and not be bothered by anything.

I'm moving soon BTW, probably around July. But we hadn't found a place to stay yet, so after selling the house, we're moving to my aunt's place. Haiz...
The thought of not having a house or moving to a new place sucks.
Everything sucks.
Even my attitude sucks. But whatever, I'm like this since forever.

Guess school will continue to be Busy, den it's attachment, den we're done in poly.

.... Does it have to end this way?

2008-05-21T00:50:00.009+08:00

Hmph Hmph and more HMPH
to all my friends!!

x 10 to Mr Lionel! -.-...

x 20 to Tan Ah Si!

I was expecting messages to flood inbox at around 12am. But sadly, only one sent me a birthday greeting roughly around that time.
There were nicer ppl like Esther and Ebellia ++ Melissa who manage to send me a greeting before i post this.

I have to remind my mum and sis about the time.

And Remind MR Lionel about it as well, when all the while he was chatting with me. When i say that he haven greeted me, he still ask greet for wat? Tsk Tsk!!

-.-.. K la, i don remember ppl birthdays as well.
I shall be nice and forget about it. hahaha...

So Anway, i had an early Bday celebration cum mothers day cum aunt birthday, with my family + 3th Aunt. It's my sis treat... And!! We didn't have Pizza Hut this time for my birthday. Like how we always celebrate. Initially was going to pizza hut, den when they introdueced delivery, we call pizza hut delivery.
haha... So we went over to Velocity to have dinner, at this Japanese
teppanyaki place. the place was nicely decorated with great ambiance, and the waitress have wonderful services. Except from the fact that their Chinas.

I bought my mum and aunt flowers as well, and i can see that they liked it. Cause, esp. my mum, keep wanting to take photo. Hahaha!!!

Our table was flooded with food, when all of it was here. I wanted to take a picture of it, but they couldn't wait to start eating. -.-... The food looks good, but tasted average.

My Aunt bought me a cake, hadn't sang birthday song with them for a long time.

And it's quite cheap. $70 plus for 5 person.

Yap... Our family outing after a very very long time.

2008-05-18T00:08:00.004+08:00

Sigh...

School's busy and I'm tired.

Today was a good day, in the afternoon. Cause my accessor was nice. (:
Night was OK... Nothing much.

Now I'm home, blogging plus watch show? -.-... What am i doing?!

So Anyway,

MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING SOON!!!

Remember my PRESENTS!

SO not in a good mood. -.-

2008-05-07T22:38:00.009+08:00

Alright... there is no lesson today. So went out to help Ebellia with the photoshop thing for LD.

Did a bit of shopping, and end up spending roughly 80 bucks on clothes. -.-

Right now, i have to think of my reflection for WISP. Shit!

Sigh... i hate WISP. I'm having the same kind of pressure i had for CATS and German. Bloody reflection that needs presenting as well. the bloody lecturer doesn't allow us to present with scripts. And i bloody hate PRESENTING! I rather do a 100 page report den to present.

Zzz

Whenever i think about it, i have this sick feeling inside me.

Ok... Something MORE interesting to talk about.

Went to have a picnic plus BBQ at night with Mr Lionel on Saturday. The day didn't went out very well... As a matter of fact, it kinda screwed up. We were indirectly chased out of the pavilion by some Dumb ass, brainless Malay guys. Chased away by owners of the pit twice. and end up BBQing in the pavilion right at the end of the park. I got pissed and blamed Mr Lionel, which pissed him off as well. -.-...

Ok... Some random pictures while waiting for time to pass. took it with my CHOCOLATE phone.

Trying to do this: :)

Nope... No photoshop on these pictures. The way the sun shines is perfect!
Well, Singapore's beach doesn't look so bad from far.

That's about it...

WISP SUCKS

2008-05-02T00:18:00.002+08:00

Life have been really hectic since the start of school.
FYP, Landscape III, WISP, reports, assignments, Blah blah blah

So anyway,
On Tue, 29 April, It was mine and Lionel's 2nd Year Anniversary!
We didn't do anything really special, cause there's school and we both are super duper BROKE.
So we meet at town and he gave me a stalk of rose, and after that, went to watch Forbidden Kingdom at Shaw, which wasn't very good. I was expecting something more since it's acted by Jet Lee, and Jackie Chan.
After the show we shopped around and ate Pepper Lunch for dinner.
When we're wait for bus to go back home, a couple came over to ask if we wanna watch Iron Man sneak preview for free? Initially i thought he was trying to con us to something. But, it's really, and the place was flooded with people.

The show was really good, funny; Lot's of action, good storyline. So much better compared to the first show. You guys should really catch the show.

The show end around 11 plus, and we went home.

Err.... Yea. That's all. Hahaha...

2008-04-15T23:42:00.002+08:00

I finally got my tag board up!
Kinda took me hours to get the colours i want. -.-... Though i know that there's not much difference and wasn't that challenging that i need to use abt an hour for it.

So today was the second day of school, and I'm already sick of it.
The LD project itself have already seems to be really troublesome. The group was huge, and I'm working with people from my buddy class, which is kinda weird and different but their nice. Just that I'm not familiar with them and i don know their work style, but most probably it's getting everything done asap. And i guess i wont be able to help out much, cause i dint think my work is up to their standards. haha...

There are more projects coming up, which means more problems.
How i wish i was smarter, so everything will be chicken feet to me.
We have this module on politics, and i know nuts abt what's happening around the world, politically, or maybe everything. Ok... Not to that extent, i do know Jamie Lynn Spears is pregnant.

Another thing that's making me sick is having to wake up so early in the morning! -.-..
I've been reaching school real early to prevent getting into a bus that's flooded with humans. Hate crowded buses. Zzz...

Will rant more next time.

2008-04-12T01:34:00.006+08:00

Today was a bad day.
Just reached my work place and was told off by a customer.
She came, An AUNTIE with her daughter, when i was tying up my hair, and gave me a 'why are u making me wait' look. So i quickly tie up my hair, grab my mask and glove and went over.
Then she said, ' Can u wash ur hands first before u touch the ice cream?'
-.-... Ok... My fault.

So she ordered an ice cream cone, den said she's gonna get a 500ml tub. But she'll drive her daughter to the tuition first and go a big round(i have no idea why she said that) and come back to collect the ice cream. So ok... And she went off. I wanted to ask if she could pay up first, including the cone she got for her daughter. But didn't really dared to since, -.-.. i got told off.

So i trust that she'll be back.

....... BUT SHE DIDN'T!!!!!!

BLOODY HELL!! I got cheated of $3.50. And i still have to scoop out the ice crem from the tub that she ordered.
Shit.
I am so bloody pissed!
I was still worrying if i got the flavours she wanted. Zzz

I've learnt my lesson and wont make the same mistake again.

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Went to fish with Lionel at bedok jetty on Tuesday. Woke up around 7.30am!

It was... our 3rd time fishing. He said is gonna do fishing as his NYAA. So most likely I'll be going to the beach more often, if he were to want me to acc him.

I took some pictures.

It's a sunny day.

I'm not being cocky. The hat was blocking my view.
haha

It drizzle for a while, so we went to a pavilion and started cooking.

Well, while opening the hot dog can with his Swiss army?
he said something like, '' See, where can u find a bf who can do these.'' -.-.. And wanted me to take a shot of him opening the can.

Caught 2 fishes/bait, at 1 go!
HA!

So after that, it rained again, and this time it's super heavy. Got drenched on the way back.
And ended the day by going to the doc to get MC for stupid guy for his work.

Yap... it was fun.

And on wed, 9 April, met up with my sec. sch friends to celebrate LJ and belated HS birthday.
Spent the day at AMK hub wondering around before everyone was present.
Initial plan was to eat and watch a show, but we only had dinner, at the porridge steamboat. It was not bad. But the day ended real early.

So Lisi gave me quite a few stuff from china, one of it was a stamp? Ink stamp?
Hahaha with my name engraved on it. It's really Chinese.
Thanks(:

So that's abt it... -.-.. Still got work tomorrow. Sian..

And schools starting in 2 days time. S H I T.

2008-04-03T23:26:00.002+08:00

Well, there's a week and 3 days left to school starts. Totally sian...
As usual, i wanna try enjoying the last week of this holiday but my week was pack with work. I know... No one could force me to work, and there's a thousand and one reasons to not work, but part of me wanna earn more money. -.-
So anyway, i tried to squeeze in all the outing that was planned on days which I'm not work, Such as

the Fishing trip i was planning a long time ago with stupid guy,

Meet up with the Girls, finally!

Yap, Lisi's back from Shanghai.

She seems unwilling to part with her Cheena hotties.

And hopefully, we're able to go to the Zoo with the Esther and the rest.

Which is kinda difficult cause I'm working 5 days next week.

But! I will make time, if we were to go, even if it means I'm gonna

piss Amy. haha

Yap, squeezing everything in 1 week when I was slacking my life away the past few weeks.
But at least I'm not wasting my last week eh? hahaha....
Yes... Chin shan, Stop growing mushroom.

So dear classmates, anticipate for the day you'll get to see me.(:

I'm sorry

2008-03-25T01:33:00.004+08:00

Was surfing the web when i found this... programme. Scrapbook making. So decided to make one with the photos i got. Cool eh? Hahaha... u can say that i got nothing better to do.
Will take quite some time to load (:

Make a scrapbook - it's easy!

2008-03-16T16:27:00.004+08:00

Well... I tried to watching the movie, 英雄. I know it's quite some years ago movie, but stupid guy kept saying it's a good show, so i thought why not try watching since i got nothing to do. But apparently, every online website cant seem to load the entire show. -.-... That's why i'm here blogging. Zzz

So anyway, we got back our results. And when i went through my classmates blogs(which they posted their result), i come to realise that my friends, or probably just me and Esther might be the lousiest students in the entire class. ------.------
Tsk tsk...

I know... You reap what you sow.
But i cant believe that bloody josh dare gave me, and maybe many others, a bloody C!! You don even know how to teach, project work are based on practically what we've learnt in year 1(which is NOT taught by you), and you gave us a C!?
Wth...

As for saiful, i can never understand why i've never once score in his exams. None. Always C or D. haha.. Yet i always have this impression that his papers ain't that difficult...

So i went out with stupid guy yesterday (Saturday!), been a long time since i hang around town on a Saturday, and the place was flooded with humans. We went to watch Rule #1. I think the show was.... manageably quite scary. Story plot was not bad.
It is not very scary, but somehow i cant seem to fall asleep at night. My mind kept replaying the scary scenes even though i tried very hard to think of funnier things.
haha...

So went to work in the morning, came back at 2 plus, and probably staying home the entire day. Boring~ But nope, i don wish to go back to school. I like wasting my life. hahaha... Don't judge me!

So that's all... Will blog again some time.

Stupid Josh! or is it Joash? Whatever...

2008-03-05T23:53:00.001+08:00

I'm utterly disappointed by your reply.
Is it cause I don't deserve it?

I guess so.

2008-02-28T01:21:00.002+08:00

Just finish watching My Girl, korean drama.
Ahh... Nice!
The guy is soooo handsome Well.. Maybe just in the show.
But anyway... a must to watch! (:

2008-02-24T03:41:00.001+08:00

Love isnt all that matters.

2008-02-24T00:29:00.004+08:00

My exams are over.
Felt like i don know what to do with my life now. How i wish there's sch, so that there's something for me to do, someone for me to talk to.
Haiz... Time for me to find some commitment, perhaps another relationship?

Wanted to blog abt my pillow yesterday, but I'm no longer in the mood to do so. Will blog abt it next time.

Anyone wants a pretty girl's company? haha...

I'll do an emo post next time.

Regret is what i want you to feel.

Evil?

-.-... joking

2008-02-21T02:27:00.002+08:00

Breeding paper on friday, but i'm not getting anything in.
Still at what? Lecture 2?
Haiz... Can't fail.

2008-02-20T00:58:00.003+08:00

Hurts...

But i asked for it.

2008-02-12T23:18:00.000+08:00

Ok!

Some pictures taken during Chinese New Year. Before going to my grandma's.

My Family photo!

I know i look abit fake. -.-... But i did try to smile.
Showed Chin shan this pic and she said my sis is becoming prettier. But i think it's her fake lashes that's blocking her view. haha...

Den of course it's the 3 of us!
The laptop cant install photoshop. So i cant edit away the stupid pimple.

So anyway, went out the the gang today. It's like a dinner to send Lisi off (attachment to China).
It was Really difficult to get everyone together. Sent like thousand SMSs here and there.

And again, we didnt take any group pictures. Zzz... Such a rare chance to meet up and yet we didnt A picture. But nvm... there's always next time.

Ate NYDC. Sucked! I've black listed quite also of restaurant already. Is my taste buds having some problems or the quality of food nowadays is getting lousy?

Exams are coming. And some bloody lecturer made one of our paper on 15 feb. Idiot... Must be deprived of LOVE. First is the day after stupid guy's birthday, now Valentine's day.
But... we've got no choice but to accept it.

That's abt it...

2008-02-10T23:39:00.000+08:00

Ok... Haven't blog for like months.
Cause i got nothing interesting to talk abt and lazy to blog.

So CNY is over. It's not so bad. Ate... Some good food. Recieved lots of red packets. Around 200 plus? Hahahaha.... But because i felt rich when i'm counting the money, i gave almost half away. Well... Not ''give it away'', but my sis says she wants to keep for us(bro and me). Reason? She said for like insurence? Don worry, my sis is not trying to con my money.
But giving her to keep = Cant spend = Giving my money away.

But on the 3rd of the new yr, i have to start working already. Zzz... Totally sian.

Anyway, I've got like so many thing i have to spend on, and my cousin just asked if i wanna go taipei. $800!

-.-... Must plan my money well.

Your my hero, LC!

-.-... ok. i wont be mean. Hope his friend doesnt see this. Otherwise there's another reason for them to hate me.

Just finish reading someone's blog. And den i found out that... -.-... I'm so not sweet at all! Zzz
I love them very very much,
My life is so beautiful
etc etc... Was never found coming out of my mouth, sincerly. I might say those stuff sometimes to spike my bro. hahaha

This is bad eh?

I'm cute cute cute!

-.-...

2008-01-17T22:19:00.000+08:00

...

Blog when better.

2008-01-13T01:50:00.000+08:00

I need something to remind me of the past.
Make me realise it wasn't easy to get from there to here.
Otherwise, I might just give up.

Sweet dreams please.

2008-01-12T23:47:00.000+08:00

PMS. My sis have concluded that I'm suffering from that right now. That's the reason for my strange behaviour. Must be...

It's a Saturday, yet i got no programmes. Stayed home and went to my grandma's in the evening. Tsk tsk.. Nowadays i have this mindset that if i didn't go out during the weekend, I'm wasting my life. Saturdays are so precious to me right now. Thanks to work!

I'm bored. I wanna do anything except for schoolwork.
I got no motivation to do things.
I just wanna lie down and forget about everything. It's called Escaping Reality. I love escaping!

... Let me waste my life.

I'm sorry.

Speaking to me right now might just ruin your mood.

2008-01-12T01:03:00.000+08:00

I don't want to be a Stupid Woman.

I don't like made beliefs.

2008-01-06T11:54:00.000+08:00

Just been a week in school, i realise that i got tons of projects reaching it's deadline. Plus more coming up. Results for doing nothing during the holidays.

Brain exploding, hands not doing anything.

aahh...

School Sucks!

Anyway, we organised a food fair in school. On monday. Do come if ur freeee...

2007-12-29T13:44:00.000+08:00

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2007-12-27T22:22:00.000+08:00

Christmas is over just like that.

All the decorations, lightnings, trees which too so long to put up just for one day.

Anyway, Nothing special abt my Christmas. No party, No gatherings with my group of friends, No good food -.-... Either 1 or 2 is unable to make it. But still, i got to meet up with them(not everyone together) And received presents! hahaha...

On Christmas eve, met up with the gang after working, except for shi wee (who's happily counting down with her JC friends). Orchard was flooded with stupid people. Zzz.. In order to walk from wheelock to the orchard MRT station, We have to walk from Wheelock-back entrance of station, which we cant enter-wisma-taka-and back. So we decide to walk all the way to Somerset station to take train to Suntec to catch a movie.

The present i received from Lisi.

Cards and stuffs made by her. Inside the box is a bracelet with my initials.

And on Christmas, i went out with stupid guy.
Went to slack ard in Junction 8. Cause town will be too full. Talk, walk, shop and ate our dinner at an old market near my house. -.-... Fishball noodles. A very nice place to celebrate Christmas. haha...

Received a present from him...

All Black!

Too bad he couldn't wear the belt i bought him -.-... What a waste.

YanShan sent me a handmade Christmas card, blabbering things like how pretty she is. -.-...
Nothing better to do izzit?
haha...

That's all for Christmas presents. The heartless LJ and HS didn't give anything. hahaha

Anyway.. Time to work ppl. Stop loitering around town. Your making people like me unable to board the train.

2007-12-23T01:57:00.000+08:00

Ho HO Hooo!

Christmas is coming!!

Have fun everyone.

I got present from shi wee today.
Still waiting for other's presents. Hahaha...

Having the shopping mood again. Anyone needs shopping companion?

2007-12-19T23:34:00.000+08:00

Went out with Shi Wee and Hui Shan today. (thank god their able to accompany me)
It was fun. But will be better if Lisi and LiJing are able to join us.

We went to shop for present, though I'm the only one wanted to buy. haha...
Because i wanted the black, i made the sales man climb all the way up to get it. The place is super dusty and high.
But thanks to HS and SW that i get the black. THANKS!!!

Haha... the man passed me the thing for me to check and see if it's in good condition, and i thought he's not giving me a bag, so i went to ask,''Can i have a bag or smth?'' -.-... It's super embarrassing la. Never gonna step inside that store again. But the Sales man is really helpful. He deserves an award.

So after that we walked around to look for clothes and finally decides to have dinner at shi wee's uncle store. It's good and really cheap. haha...
Was super full after that.

We ought to meet soon ladies!!

I wonder sometimes what makes me better den others.
And i realise... Nothing.

2007-12-15T01:15:00.000+08:00

Sorry for taking years to update.

Been busy with my boring life. So bored so bored. It sometimes makes me wonder what is my purpose in life.
How nice will it be, to be able to turn back time. To the time where everything was simple, yet happy. The water bombs, block catching, sleepovers. Where we can survive without the computer. -.-''
Now we cant survive a day without a com. Wat's the world coming to?

Anyway,
School's over. Christmas coming... And 'm working. ZZZ...
Work sucks.

Sometimes, things are better left unsaid.

when is the last time you said, ''i love you''?

2007-12-08T01:43:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i think i can be Dear Kelly. Where u'll write to me and I'll try to help u, give u advise. Stuffs like that?

Telling ppl stuffs like, ''no, things will be better'', or ''all it matters is to have fun and enjoy''.
Sometimes things are easier said den done. It's quite impossible for me to do wat i said.

like.....
My school work sucks.
My friends are no longer there for me.
My relationship ain't going well.
My family ignores me.
I'm having stupid pimples that just wont fucking disappear!
(I'm just saying, don question me abt it)

And solution to that? Ignore it. Don think abt it. Forget it.
All i can do is run away from problems, cause their too troublesome. Maybe it'll just disappear.

It pisses me off when ppl tell me they wanna die or i wanna leave just because of some minor setbacks. I mean, if so, wont there be like alot of ppl jumping off their blocks already? There's so much more in life then just grumble abt why i don have this, why cant i have that?

-.-...
I'm not sure wat am i trying to say.
Just trying to release stress.

2007-12-04T23:45:00.000+08:00

I seriously should blog more often.

Aboriculture paper tomorrow. Wish me luck.

No work for the entire week, GREAT!

2007-11-25T00:45:00.000+08:00

Time to Blog.

Missed me eh?

It's a super tiring week. And i have insufficient sleep. Stupid buses are damn full and takes years to come. Singapore is seriously OVER-POPULATED! So please, No more foreign talents!
Students don get jobs during holiday, cause their more ex compared to foreigner. We're practically giving money to other countries.
Ok... -.-.. No more mean stuffs.

Haiz... There's presentation on Thursday. Zzz...

Will update soon.