Hmm.. I'm once again bored. I quit maple. Er... Never play so frequently to be acc!@#$% (how to spell?) Haiz.... Bored.

I'm not working anymore. Finially quit Pasta maina... I wanna find another higher pay, weekend and easier job. Cause most of my books and other stuffs which i need for my course are paid by myself. I got to buy a thumbdrive!! -.- yap.. Some other IT books, Clothes ( i almost wore everything in a week) and... transportation fee and wat so ever.

Hmm... I've always believed that when someone falls for another, the reason is because the person looks nice in the outside instead of the inside. Especially for those who liked u even when u NEVER talk to them once?! How is that possible? Love at first sight? that is if u are good-looking isn't it? Who will fall for someone who is fat and ugly the first time u saw them. For me.. i think it's no way... But how come my sis and her bf can last till now? And it's always my sis who wants/threaten to break up. They get to know each other by being introduced by their friend. It is den that they started talking to each other and start to date. I thought they'll break up like... a few months later or so. Cause.. Heard from my sis, he's the one how liked her first i think. When they don really know each other?? watever

Anyway... I normally like someone after i get to know them. But i always thought someone will like me cause i'm good-looking. haha.. That's why i'm so 'ai mei' -,-... Everyone have the same mindset right? T_T haiz... i think i'm getting uglier... nature. People gets uglier as they grow old. Eepecially mei niu like me. As for those who got 'wa wa nian' which means.... baby face i think.. haha lisi.. ur under this. Good for u... u wont get ugly. cause ur face will always be the same as years pass. Urgh... How unfair. Nvm.. People will always say i'm pretty, while ppl will always say ur cute. hahahahahahaha -.-... no one says i'm cute.

Hmm.. Another thing. I don believe in long lasting love. I think the feelings for another person will fade as time goes by. That's what happen when people break up isn't it? After breaking, u'll feel sad and wanna die. Soon... It becomes like that person have never been in ur life b4. Nowadays.. So many families are single parent. Or.. like mine, my parents don love each other anymore. -.- I doubt my mother ever fell in love to my dad b4. Haha.. So.. i think my families are the same.

Oh ya.. haha.. Lisi is so worried that LJ will marry her bf very soon. hahaha.... Are u sure? when she's 17 and his 21? Lol.. LJ not that dumb ba? Wanna marry in such age. haha.. Ur so... funny. Well.. If they were to marry. Den... good luck to them. Hope that they will 'zao sheng gui zhi'. hahahahha Maybe jacky will love her for... as long as they live? who knows...

Say... I'm those kind that falls for someone easily. So no way am i able to stay with someone for so long. Maybe i ought to have many many boyfriends. hahaha. So evil~
-.- I'm bored.

♥ 4:03 PM

Almost a week have passed. What can i say abt poly? Boring~

It's so boring if u don have any good friends or someone who's alike with me and able to click well with me. Well, not alot of ppl click well with me. I prefer someone who is, Lame, Quite, and able to crap with me. =)
There's non in my group. Sian... There's the 5 of us. And of course, as usual, i'm the odd one out. I'm the loner.. I don have a partner... Haiz... I miss my sec. schoolmates. -.-'' Maybe not including kay yok.. haha
i miss the times where get would gather around shi wee's and my desks, chat and say some senseless or latest gossip, or the times where we'll go to the toilet together. -.- Humans always don cherish things i suppose. And when we start to lose it, we'll start to regret. tsk tsk... So stupid..
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Anyway, the new friends of mine are not that bad. Very friendly people. Just that... maybe cause i'm not that socialible. This seperates me from them i guess.. I will try to communicate more with them.. Sian Hope things goes well. Lisi... good to hear that ur getting along with ur friends. Don forget me hor. I'll find u often. haha

Hmm.. Things are starting to change. I don hope for anything anymore. I suppose the ending have already been made the moment things starts.

[[ The moment u step into my life, did u thought of the time where u'll step out of it]]

♥ 10:48 PM

-.-... I got a course in NP. Horticulture & Landscape Management!! The course i wanted. I'm so happy when i recieve the call. What i said in the previous entry, abt the bitch and bastand, I DON'T WAN!! I DON WAN TO MEET SUCH PEOPLE!! AHHHHH.... I don wan to be left alone loitering the school by myself.. NOOOOO!!!

I'm starting school next monday. =.= I don have the mood to go school yet. Sian.. i haven got my cramper bad, i got no clothes, i got no shoes. Haiz... how?
Another thing... AHHHH my passport photo.. AHHH... so ugly. That huge big pimple is so obvious!! haiz... I'm so not prepared. Now i have to solve my pimple problem. haiz..

Now i got a course but LJ still don have. I guess she's very disappointed ba. Afterall, if it was me, and she got a course, i'll feel the same way as well. All i could do is hope that TP replys her soon.

♥ 9:49 PM

Today, SP and NP called. They asked if i wanted to get into...

SP: Mechinical Engineeing, and Civil & Structure Management
NP: Electrical Engineering

These 3 courses. Hmm.. i rejected them. I'm so not interested in these courses. I asked if there's any other courses available, they said that's all. Haiz..

I told Lisi abt it, she said i should have accepted the course. Well.. i know that she just wanted me to get into at least a course so i wont have to waste a yr AND so that her and i could be in the same school. -.-
Lionel also says that i should have accepted the courses and transfer the next yr.

Did i made the wrong decision? I mean... i should have taken the course? I didn't reject the courses because LJ did the same thing as well. (maybe i did think that i have a companion that's y it's ok) It's because i think, Y waste a yr or 3 yrs studying a course that i'm not interested, and curse and swear after joining it. I think it is better to waste a yr and earn money. Well.. it's that better way out. Isn't it?

Lisi kept apologising to me for indirectly causing this situation. Haiz.. don blame urself. I'm the one who's chosed these..way too low courses. No one could have forced me to choose it. I made this choice, therefore i should bare it's consequence. So stop saying sorry. Everytime u say that, i start to feel sorry for myself. I'll start to think abt going to school later den everyone else. When everyones is in yr 2, when i'm still a freshman. I'm no different from Normal. It will make me wanna cry.

Anyway, don say i made the wrong choice. Otherwise i will start regreting again... How i wished i got into the course i wanted, went orientation like everyone else(eventhough it really sucked), get to go school with my friends, taking the same bus to and fro. Using my newly bought Crumpler bag and making new friends. As well as complaining abt how shitty my new classmates are. The bitch, the bastards.. Lol
Therefore guys.. don complain anymore. Appreciate the things u got. Duh

So right now, i guess i gonna find a full-time job. I'm not sure if i wan to appeal for courses at TP in aug or wait for the next JAE to get into Horticulture. Anyway there's still a long way before that. I'll think abt it some time later.

♥ 11:21 PM

Haha.. Been playing with HTML for abt 3 days. Now... Nothing much to do in maple. My companion have quited. So right now, i just wan to reach my goal of lvl 7o. Den it will be my turn to kiss good bye to maple.

This HTML stuffs is really giving me headaces.. How the hell people manages to do a blog with such codes? Just trying to add links and a tag board is killing me. That's why i decided to ack my cousin to do the job. XD

Oh... I'm not that stupid. I'm still able to make this:

♥ 7:02 PM

After waiting for like... 1 month plus for the results of my appeals. I couldn't wait any longer. Therefore i decide to call up the polys to ask for the results. Well, lisi did most of the calling though. We called TP first, they said the appeal was unsucessful, so was the appeal for NYP. We couldn't call through NP.
SUCKS MAN... i mean how long do they expect us to wait when they have already decide to reject our appeals. They made us wait for so long, carrying more hopes that as long as we have not recieve means we have greater chances ( well that's wht i think -.-). Anyway... i mean to say, if they had sent us the letter of rejection earlier maybe we could still try to go and ask again. And not wait till everyone's starting to go school when we have to go and beg them to accept us. ARGH!!!!! Damnit. What the hell...


TP said that if i wanted to get into the sch, i'll have to send a photocopy of my IC and result slip plus a letter of reason why i wanted to get into the course. They will reply at the end of april. Which means we'll have to go sch after everyone else. That's if they were to accept us. -.- So we'll wait for another month hoping again that we could get in.

During this period, i wont dare to do anything else like maybe sign up for private? Or planning wht i can do if i couldn't get in. What i'm trying to say is.. ISN'T THIS WASTING OUR TIME???!!! -.- So right now... i really don know what to do. I'm hoping that couldn't call through NP is a hope and not another disappointment.

Right now my mum's blaming me that i didn't repay the god or for not studying harder. Fine.. my fault. Who ask me to be so dumb. Thinking i'm so pro, choosing courses cut off points which is way lower den my aggregate.. Yap.. I BZLL. I deserve it.. FINE! I'm regreting it now ok... -.-


I'm prepared for the worst. I'll have to wait another year if i couldn't get in poly. Cause i'm too poor to go for private. Poor man's life.. T_T
Tomorrow i'll go repay the god. Maybe it's too late but better den never. Lisi asked me, '' u believe in such things ar?'' haha.. Right now, even if i have to kiss the legs of the gods to get into poly. I may do it. Haha.. desperate people go for desperate means. haha..

Haiz... my maple companion have gone for his 4 days 3 night camp. So i'll have to train by myself. I'll chiong till lvl 70. T_T... So LONELY!! Miss Lonely... When sch starts, i guess it will be the end of.... Whatever our relationship is. Don think we'll still communicate that often. -,-... i don know wat else to say abt this..

ByeZ.....

♥ 12:09 AM

-.-
Such a disappointment... I didn't manage to get into SP. Haiz... i wanted to get into that school, cause most of my friends are in there. T_T LISI~ haha
Indeed, this is the punishment for not repaying the god. That's wat my mother said. So sad!!! Why SP is the first to recieve. No more hopes, No more chances LE. Now got to wait for the results of other schools.
Haiz.. let's see how it goes...

♥ 12:32 AM